Friday 31 January 2014

3rd February 1940

30th January 1940
Fed up of the snow and cold.  Had a right draught blowing on my back today at work and now I just can’t get warm.  I’m knitting a pair of those socks for myself first.  A letter got through from Mum – Dad apparently lost a nights sleep over a train lost in a snowdrift in the cutting.

3rd February 1940

A new month but still no thaw and no dancing.  I thought war would be exciting.

Thursday 30 January 2014

27th January 1940

I was meant to be going to a dance last night but it snowed and snowed.  We ended up staying in by the fire.  Joan and I have decided to take up knitting – socks for the brave boys and all that.  It’s very tedious but we feel like we’re doing a bit more to help this way.  If all this goes on much longer I wonder if I ought to join up?

Wednesday 29 January 2014

20th January 1940

This cold weather is terrible.  Joan is pining after Jim who has now gone.  Apparently Tom is now better and out of hospital.  I’m sure it must have been co-incidence.  Mrs F is getting a bit fed up of neighbour Bill not taking much notice of her.  And we’re struggling a bit with the rationing.  I’m so hungry I must go to sleep now to take my mind off it.  Edie Bagshaw says she’s having trouble looking into my curse and it might have to wait until the weather improves because she’s all on getting to and from work. 

Saturday 25 January 2014

17th January 1940

Molly from the parcels office had told me that Gordon is out of hospital and his injuries are healing up.  But he might get put away in a home.  I don’t know how she knows all this.  She asked me if I’d had any trouble with Mrs Leon’s curse and I said not, trying to look like I didn’t care.  Don’t want it getting back to the Leons that I’m worried.

Friday 24 January 2014

15th January 1940

This is really quite odd, but Joan’s date from last week – Jim – came to see us and my date, Tom, has been ever so poorly in hospital.  He’s had some sort of virus and they don’t know what it is.  He seems to be on the mend now but he says that he started with it in the cinema.  When he was sat next to me.  I wonder?  Apparently he’s not keen to see me again. Joan and Jim are going to write to each other.  I think she’s quite struck with him.

Monday 20 January 2014

13th January 1940

Mrs F has seen Edie Bagshaw today.  She reckons that there may well be something in the curse and is going to consult her grandmother’s books when she gets a minute.  She’s going to pop round for tea next weekend with her findings.  I don’t know if I should be worried, or pleased that I’ve got someone on my side who knows about these things – if they do exist.

Sunday 19 January 2014

12th January 1940

Went on a double date with Joan to the flicks last night.  Joan had set it up for us with two sailors that had been chatting to her in the buffet.  Mine was called Tom and I think he’s a little bit too old for me.  In fact I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s married with five kids.  He had his hand up my skirt twice before he went home early – said he wasn’t feeling very well.  When I complained to Joan afterwards she said of course she got first choice because she set the date up.  When I set a date up myself, then that’s when I get to pick.  She seems to have clicked with hers.  He’s going to pop round and have tea with us before he goes back.

Friday 17 January 2014

9th January 1940

I asked Mrs F what she thought about the curse this morning and she’s ever so concerned for me.  She’s going to have a word with her friend, Edie Bagshaw.  She says that she has powers as well – more so than  Mrs Leon even, and she has her grandmother’s books with spells and things in.  She’s going to see her to get a perm on Saturday and will ask then.

Monday 13 January 2014

More Fiction from Sarah Miller Walters

'Dear Mr Betjeman' is my novelette about English poets and branch railways, and a woman freed to pursue her passion. Here's chapter 1 to whet your appetite:

Such a Very Ordinary Little Woman
The Old Manse
Main Street
Hoobythorpe
Lincolnshire

Dear Mr Betjeman
Yesterday afternoon while my husband was at work I saw one of your television programmes.  I’m sorry that I have not seen it before – perhaps it has only been shown in the evenings previously and my husband prefers the radio when he returns from work or indeed no noise at all.  I must say I thoroughly enjoyed your journey through Norfolk by train.  This is an area that I know well as it is not too far away from us here in the Lincolnshire Wolds.  At any time soon though it may be more difficult for us to reach the Norfolk coast (or our own coastline), as they want to take away our railway.  We thought all those cuts had finished but not here it seems. Half of Lincolnshire is to be closed to rail traffic.  It really is a terrible shame, my husband is going to have to drive to work.  At least we can afford a car – what about all those who work on the farms?
But it was so nice to see someone who’s got something good to say about the railway.  Please do continue on and tell them all how wrong they are to stop the trains.  I think I may purchase a volume of your poetry next time I visit Lincoln (by train, perhaps for the last time).
Yours sincerely
Mavis Enderby (Mrs)

Mavis returned home from posting her letter to Mr Betjeman feeling quite excited, even a little rebellious.  What would Bernard say if he knew that she’d spent the price of a stamp on a fan letter to a poet?  She hoped that her secret stash of pennies would be enough to buy one of his books.  Of course she could always borrow one from the library but it wouldn’t be the same as owning it.  She was prepared to forego this month’s pair of stockings for it though, that would be a few more pence in the fund.  Taking her brogues off though, she noticed that her toe was through the end of one of them.  Sitting on the stairs she rolled them both down and pulled them off, wriggling her toes luxuriously.  It was a warm spring day and her sheepskin slippers were uninviting so she padded barefoot into the kitchen with her basket of shopping.  Pork chops for tea, bacon and sausages for breakfast.  Mavis wondered how many entire pigs Bernard got through in a year.  She also wondered how he had got through the war with so little of his beloved meat around.  She’d asked him once and he had seemed to re-live the trauma of it on the spot.

It was time to get the tea on already, and she’d not got around to darning her stockings or counting her pennies out.  Well, the darning could be done later.  He didn’t mind her sewing, it was reading that got him down – it distracted her from his pronouncements.  Still barefoot she lit the stove and washed her hands.  The cool lino felt soothing to her tired feet after she’d been on them most of the day, plodding about the house and scuttling into the town.  By the time Bernard’s key was heard searching for the lock she was more than ready for a sit down.  However, she went through to the hall to greet him and take his coat.  He stared at her naked feet as though her entire body was uncovered.
“Cooking with nothing on your feet Mavis?  Where are your slippers?”
“There, behind you.”
“Why aren’t you wearing them? Is there something wrong?”
“No Bernard, nothing’s wrong.”
“Put them on then dear, really, whatever next.”
Mavis did as she was told and in doing so, looked up at the tall grandfather clock which also towered over her in an instructive manner.
“Oh, you’re late Bernard, I hadn’t noticed the time.”
“Yes, damn train didn’t appear until 15 minutes after its departure time.  I’m convinced that they’re doing it on purpose to put us off using it.”
Bernard washed his hands thoroughly in the kitchen sink and settled himself at the dining table as Mavis dished out the food onto his plate.  They ate almost in complete silence, Bernard wished for no distractions from his pork products.  Halfway through the meal he took his napkin and dabbed at his forehead.
“It is rather warm for the time of year isn’t it?” Mavis offered.  Bernard nodded sharply and continued to eat.
He retired to the sitting room while she cleared up and washed the dishes.  She watched the blackbirds swoop around the back lawn in the approaching dusk as she scoured each plate thoroughly.  Mavis heard Bernard rustle his newspaper open and felt her leg muscles tighten in an involuntary act of annoyance.  He would be seeking out an item of news to read to her when she joined him – something he thought she should know about, not what she would want to hear.  It was usually a morning treat for her to fetch the previous day’s daily paper out from the pile in the outhouse and pick out the items of news which interested her.  She liked to turn to the arts pages and look at the reviews to see what she might be missing or to give her ideas for books that she could borrow or request from the library.  Library book reading took place with her afternoon tea – she couldn’t read when Bernard was around, he found her tastes unsuitable, so the book was stored secretly in the kitchen where it escaped his scathing eye.  Too often her books required renewal as three weeks was not enough.

The next 20 or so hours passed as Mavis expected.  Bernard read out a rather long report from the local evening paper about the railway closure proposals.  The only other noise that was allowed to intrude was the ticking of the grandfather clock outside the door.  Mavis and Bernard retired to bed together and rose at the same time – Bernard to bathe and Mavis to prepare his bacon and sausage.  On his departure to work, she was expected to place a kiss on his left cheek before watching him brisk down the lane towards the station.  She then went upstairs to dress before starting the housework.  It wasn’t until 5.48pm that anything changed.  At first, Mavis was rather annoyed at the insistent knocking at the front door.  She was trying to squeeze in a television programme while preparing Bernard’s tea and was quite enjoying it.  Half listening for his key in the door and hoping that his train home would be a bit late again she jumped up and switched the television off smartly.  She stomped through to the hall, checking that her slippers were on her feet just in case it turned out to be Bernard with a story of a lost or stolen key.  However, she opened the door to a policeman’s uniform, whom she instantly knew carried news of a more serious mishap.  Rather unsure of how to address a policeman – she’d never had anything to do with one before – she waited for him to speak first.
“Mrs Enderby?”  His tone was quite gentle, she wasn’t in trouble.
“Yes, that’s right.”
“P C Church.  Can I come in?”
Mavis opened the door and led the policeman through to the kitchen. 
“I’m just preparing my husband’s tea.  You’ll have to excuse me checking on the cooker now and again.”
Pulling one of the chairs out from under the table, P C Church urged her to sit down a moment.  He did the same and sat facing her.  He removed his hat and cleared his throat.
“Mrs Enderby.  Your husband, Bernard, won’t be coming home this evening I’m afraid.”
“Oh.  I’ll turn the cooker off then.  Just a minute.”  She leaned over and turned all the jets of gas off in a series of clicks.  “Where is he?”
“He’s in hospital.  In Lincoln.  I’m afraid he’s in rather a bad way.  He was on the railway station and was...having words with a member of the railway staff.  It seems he lost his temper over his train being cancelled.  I’m sorry to tell you Mrs Enderby that your husband, Bernard, collapsed.  They got him to the hospital in good time, but I suggest you make your way there straight away.”
 Mavis nodded “Is the 6.30 train to Lincoln still running do you know?”
“Yes, though what time it’ll leave is anyone’s guess, as your poor husband found out.  But I should go to the station in half an hour – you’ll get there eventually.  Don’t forget that the old last train back is cancelled for good now though.”
She nodded again and stood up decisively – just time for a little tea then to fortify herself.  She wished she’d known it was just going to be her eating tonight, she’d have cooked something different.  Something she wanted.  PC Church took his cue to leave, ensuring that his hat was firmly set back on his head.
“I’ll be around the train station for the last train if I can – in case you decide not to stay.  A walk home in the dark alone can be a worry for a lady such as yourself.”

“That’s kind of you.” She let the PC out and stood by the door a moment, nibbling on a hang nail.  Back in the kitchen something hissed.  The meat went straight in the bin and Mavis ate a few vegetables before washing up the pots.  Then reaching to the top shelf of a cupboard by the sink she pulled down a make-up bag.  Mavis had made this herself from a pair of old curtains and she handled it delicately and proudly.  There wasn’t much in it, Bernard didn’t approve of make up on housewives, just a small tube of colour, compact and a very worn lipstick.  Mavis applied a little of each.  Behind the cupboard door a small key dangled.  Lifting this off with her thumb and forefinger she allowed a small smile.  This was the key to the bureau where the emergency pound note was kept.  This was exactly the sort of event that the pristine note was for, it would pay her train fare and purchase sundry items in the hospital.  Also, it would easily allow addition to her secret fund without Bernard noticing.  Placing the note in her pocket and collecting a bag with Bernard’s dressing gown and slippers, Mavis slipped out of the house and strolled to the train station.   


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Sunday 12 January 2014

8th January 1940

Rationing started today.  And I’ve been cursed by a witch.   I was at my ticket window this morning after the rush when I looked up and there was Mrs Leon staring in at me.  She started pointing and jabbering on at me, saying that it was because of me that Gordon was in hospital, that he’d tried to kill himself because I wouldn’t have him, that I thought I was too good for him.  She told me that I’d better go and visit him in the hospital and apologise and make it up to him.  I was just staying that I would do no such thing and that it was nothing to do with me when Mr Hardy came out and asked her what she thought she was doing, bothering his staff like that.  He tried his best to get rid of her and in the end she turned to go – and then suddenly turned round and yelled out this curse at me.  She said that any man who ever tries to get close to me will die.  That I will die unloved and alone.  Then she left.  Mr Hardy had a bit of a chuckle and told me not to take any notice of the mad old bat.  But I remember what Mrs F said about her being a witch.  I’ve not seen her yet to ask her what she thinks.  Joan’s like Mr Hardy in saying that she’s just a mad old woman and that I should forget it.  I feel quite upset.  I suppose that’s what she really wanted.  Well, that’s what she’s got.

Friday 10 January 2014

5th January 1940

It’s all happened today, I barely know where to begin.  I suppose last night.  I got woken up by a sudden stop to all the clanking from the shunting yard – funny how I can’t sleep without the noise now.  Anyway when I got up Mrs F had noticed it as well and she told me that the last time it had all gone quiet like that somebody had been crushed between two coal wagons.  We went a bit quiet after that, both of us wondering what might have happened and I was quite keen to get to work.  I knew that somebody there would know if there’d been an accident.  Well, I was right.  As soon as I got there and was taking off my coat, Molly from the parcels office came flying in to tell me.  Apparently, Gordon Leon has tried – and failed – to finish himself off by jumping off a gantry in the shunting yard.  Molly said that because he was scared of heights he didn’t climb up far enough and only broke an arm and a leg – and he might have an injury to his back as well, they’re not sure.  Molly fell about laughing and I must admit that I had a smile at him for being so useless that he can’t even kill himself properly.  But I do feel a bit worried now as to why he did it.

Wednesday 8 January 2014

3rd January 1940

I’m happy to be back at work and Mr Hardy says that I’m doing very well. We’re getting ready for rationing at Mrs F’s.  We’re going to start planting vegetables in the back yard, which she is going to pay a “nice strong man” to dig over first.  Mr F didn’t stay long over Christmas and I think she’s fed up and looking for a replacement.  She says that her job in the factory has opened her eyes to what a marriage could be.  I think she may have her eye on Bill from next door but one.  He’s a coal miner and so he doesn’t have to go away and join up.  Mrs Bill is no more and he has two quite big children.  Ready made family Mrs F says!

Monday 6 January 2014

1st January 1940

Went to a new year’s dance last night.  It all seemed a bit quiet, people weren’t really in the mood for it.  A lot of people were talking about that rationing that starts next week.  Gordon Leon turned up – fancy his mother letting him out!  He asked me to dance with him and I wasn’t sure if I should or not.  He had a funny look in his eye.  So in the end I said alright, just one dance and he just stared at me the whole time, never spoke.  Afterwards he kept asking if he could walk me home, until at last Mrs F pushed him away and told him to clear off.  He gave her quite a funny stare and then wandered off.  I didn’t see him again so he must have gone home.  Me and Joan and Mrs F talked about him all the way home.  According to Mrs F, a lot of people think that Mrs Leon is a witch and the she curses people.  Mrs F believes it and says that she got rid of her own husband using witchcraft when she got fed up of him.  What an odd family!

Friday 3 January 2014

26th December 1939

Went for a walk in the woods with Mum and Susan and a crying Albert after dinner.  Met Edith and her new family coming the other way.  She looks as big as a barrage balloon now – and tired and fed up.  She took one look at our screaming Albert and I could swear that she nearly burst out crying herself.  Poor poor Edith. It’s been nice to be back home but I’ll be happy to be back in Worth tomorrow.

Wednesday 1 January 2014

25th December 1939

Had a nice peaceful Christmas to say that we’re in the middle of a war.  Susan and baby Albert came for dinner (her Robert is away, we’re not sure where).  Albert wouldn’t oblige with a nap while we were eating though which made things a bit fraught.  I had some useful presents – a set of warm bedding from Mum and Dad, a hairbrush set from Susan, a lipstick from Joan and some bath salts from Mrs Fraser (very good of her because I hardly know her yet).  Joan’s lipstick is quite a daring colour but Susan says that it suits me so it must be alright.  I also wore the new dress that I treated myself to before coming home.  Best of all was when Dad came back from the pub.  He whispered to me that he was very proud of me and that I was a credit to the dear old LMS.  I could cry I’m so happy!